have been waiting for this guy to reply me as to whether he can let me adopt the maltese.
plus still need to calculate in loads of other factors and stuff, so yes we'll see. ._.
MALTESE! <3
Yeah, recently school's been okay. I'm learning to deal with things more [: I remember Mrs Chu mentioning stuff about being emotionally strong, so i must.
Also, Mr Ng was doing that Quantum Touch thingy. ._. Like you breathe in from your toes (FIGURATIVE) to the top of your head, then breathe out through your fingertips. You should be able to feel something. Like, a flow of energy. SCARY.
Then went Grandma's house today for dinner. I think I'm getting a new phone? O.O
SAMSUNG F480! Lol. I'll miss Sony Ericsson alotttttttttt. I LOVE SONY! <3 HEARTHEARTHEART. My first phone was Samsung though. xD
LOVELOVELOVE SONY! <3
Okay nights, there's band tmr rawr.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
{ 3:36 PM on '#114. ?' }
What am I supposed to say here? Cause I'm restricted ]:
Okay, let me just turn this blog into a supposedly happy place, even if it means I'm supposed to make my life sound interesting when its broken.
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YEAH HI PEOPLE :D -fakesmile- Hahaha xD
These few days in class weren't exactly very healthy, but we made yogurt :D I ate it today. It tasted very... O.O
And went out! Bought Irene's perverse present. -.- And accidentally bought an orange hairband and a thumbthing [that's the brand name.] And my IP Zone Jacket! I saw that jacket a week ago priced at $43, and today I bought it for $19. HAHAHAHAHAHA. PWNNNNNNN <3
Happy things aside, I think beside losing my friends, I've begun to kick some away. Sorry to the one I got upset at this morning, I wasn't feeling very happy. Sorry.
Its trauma, I'm telling you.
Anyway, I am sorry for the flaming- I was abit... consumed by my feelings? Yeah. After reading my posts I felt I did go abit overboard. I admit I'm wrong about that.
But you can't scold me for hanging my dirty laundry in public? After reading David Pelzer I've realised that things are not going to help if you bottle them all up. You'll just get abused, whether it is self-inflicted or by others. Even though he's talking about physical abuse, I'm talking about emotional problems.
I've set down my goal to never have this problem after our dearest Yu Teng, but I guess its blasted again. I'd rather have Yu Teng back, at least at that time I was right and she was wrong. But I've begun to start being the Yu Teng now. The isolated one, the one that is sucking up to others so that she won't be left out, the extremely act-innocent one, I don't want to be. I guess they're what David Pelzer calls survival tactics.
I really don't want to live like this. Why do I even have to live like this?
If my work attitude was so bad, then why ask me to be your partner? Why?
If last year we made a pact that we can make time to be together and study together, with willpower and determination, why not? Mr Ng said talent comes in second, its whether you're willing to or not.
I don't understand, people change. People change, but there is always a reason for the change. I want to know that reason. Why you changed.
I don't want to sound like a naggy grandmother, but I'm the one suffering, not you. I'm the one suffering because of you. Cause its now split into 'we' and 'you', not 'us'.
why.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
{ 10:22 PM on '#113.' }
was forced to post so... hi. [:
CNY sales were extremely bad and will talk about it like, over the weekend. sigh, these days i feel so lonely D:
merry xmas. sorry for not posting!
happy belated birdday minchihhhhhhh <3
Monday, January 19, 2009
{ 10:01 PM on '#112. MORNING.' }
MORNING.
Today got the RS finalised groups. With Sarah and ChingYing in Science Investigative Project. ZZZ.
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Had band today! TUTORIALLLLLLL.
Had PRC Scholar come over and joined saxophones! scary. I FIND HIM PERVERTIC [: kept looking at rachel omg -.-
but today was okay in general! [: mr goh went through overture no. 2, and other than some being out of tune, as always... i'm quite okay with pretty much everything. xD YAYYYYYY.
Then nothing much. Abit emo la, i mean- WHAT DO YOU EXPECT.
I have no life. No proper group of friends.
LYKKE, WAOOOOW CAZZPERE, YOO HUVE NUU FWENZZ?! LOOZERRHXSH. Yeah. You get what I mean.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
{ 1:01 PM on '#111. hoho?' }
MEME!
Post Title: 爱的主旋律 1) put ur itunes on shuffle. 2)for each question, press next for your answer. 3)YOU MUST WRITE DOWN THE NAME OF THE SONG NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. 4)tag 11 friends hu might enjoy this.
1. if someone says :' is this okay?' u say... 咕叽咕叽 - 孙燕姿 LAWL. :D
2. wad would best describe ur personality? If I Kissed You- Corrinne May EW?! D: SO NOT TRUE.
3. wad do u like in a girl/guy? 夜的第七章 - 周杰倫 O.O Night's Seven Piece? Huh. LAWL. N o I do not like someone just because they're active at 7 at night. -.-
4. how do u feel today? 赤地轉機 - 林峰 D: Yeah, I feel emo. And opportunities keep changing? D:
5. what is your life's purpose? C'est La Vie - 梁静茹 LAWL, this is the life! :D Yay.
6. what is your motto? All For One, One For All - HSM2 EXACTLY. I LOVE YOU MEME.
7. what do your friends think of you? Little Superhero Girl- Corrinne May ILY MEME! (: I'm a little superherooooooooo~ xD
8. what do you think of your parents? 一千年以后 - 林俊杰 LAWL. A thousand years later? We'll all be dead.
9. what do you think about very often? 獨白 - 林俊杰 "友情 是今生的承诺", wow. This is very correct. ]: Isn't it the current friendship problems?
10. what is 2+2? 波肩带 - 林俊杰 Huh? O.O Its a 波肩带? LOL.
11. what do you think of your best friend? I have no best friend. D: But anyway, Rock Star - Miley Cyrus O.O LOLLLLLL. Maybe the person will turn into some famous person next time!
12. what do you think of the person you like? Everything In Its Time - Corrinne May ? Everything will take place when its time? The person has good time management? -laughs- I doubt.
[13-15 is missing.]
16. what do your parents think of you? 一次一次一次 - 林峰 LOL. I keep telling them one time only, but I repeat it at least 3 times? Yeah. I'm repetitive xD
17. what will you like to dance to at your wedding? L-O-V-E - 林俊杰 HAHAHAHA YEAH! :D Duh!
18. what will they play at your funeral? 分手快乐 - 梁静茹 -.- Not good to see me die okayyyy! We fenshou not happy! MUST MOURN FOR ME LA D:
19. what is your hobby/interest? 需要你 - 孙燕姿 I like to need someone? O.O
20. what is your biggest secret? A handful of Love - ? Um, I have a handful of love but no one knows?
21. what do you think of your friends? Be My Love - Clazziquai I always think of them as my loves? YES [:
22. what's the worst thing that can happen? 完美的一天 - Sun Yan Zi The worst thing that can happen to me is a perfect day. GO DIE LA MEME. -.-
23. how will you die? 一秒的天堂 - 梁静茹 I will die as I get my one second of heaven. -.-
24. does anybody like you? 舞出彩虹 - 石欣卉 That's a yes right. :D cause I can dance rainbows!
25. if you could go back in time...wad would you change? 崇拜 - 梁静茹 I would change worship! -.-
26. what hurts right now? 本草綱目 - 周杰倫 The grass hurts? :D
27. what would you post this as? The Last Breakthrough - Raymond Lam LAWLLLLLLL xD I SWEAR THIS WON'T BE MY LAST POST OR BREAKTHROUGH. -.-
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
{ 9:11 PM on '#110! LOVEEEEEMEMORIES♥' }
{: memories from 2008!
and one from 2009 xD
will miss the old times in ghimmoh, and also... the old friends.
!LAWL, at IceSkating on 1JAN2009!
I♥RENEEEEEE! xD
♥PUIIIISHAN THE CHAIR! :D
♥CHINGYING & unglam me ]:
♥CHITTY & ♥LINMIN! [: RSYAYYYY.
♥RONGYING! ZOMGLAWL.
♥iRCFC! & the unglam picture -.-
♥HOODIEEEEEES!
♥CFC! ZOMG unglam me again ]:
♥BIMBONANA2! ZOMG -.-"
♥LUCKY KEYS!
Felicia and Cass's foot & keys.
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that's about it :D
JIAYOU LYSTRA FOR CNY STUFF K. D:
we need to buck up!
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
{ 8:41 PM on '#109. <3irene, peishan.' }
I NOW DEDICATE THIS POST TO IRENE AND PEISHAN [:
IRENE
EH I SEE PEISHAN DEDICATE TO YOU, IM NOT HAPPY EH. So here lemme dedicate something to you too :D yeah you really need comfort manzz.
Okay so just telling you whenever you tell me those stuffs, i want to do everything i can but i really cant do much. Cos im not a good counsellor at all, sadlyD: and im not in the same class with you to hang out with you!! I feel so hopeless about helping you!! But i really want to, and i will if i get any chance to. Haha, and i really feel that you're unfortunate to go through any of this stuffs cos you're always friendly & funny (: Friends, you can always get better ones. And i hope peishan will make you happy in class! (I'll make you happier though muahaha) i believe you'll find better friends than them :D cos you're cassssss. balls girl! balls always be with you yo(: it's not the end of the world yet, and it's not worth being down in the doldrums cos of silly people. cheer up & go sodding on! love(:
:D
PEISHAN
what's actually friendship? friends are people who will help you, never leave you alone{at least try} friends are people who never xian2 qi4 you for the way you are. friends are sometimes not friends at all. you put the effort in, yet they dont return your feelings if that ever happens, i think you just need to go away..they are not deserved for you! find someone better! if they just angry for a petty matter, just wait for them to slimmer down (: in your life, you will make a lot alot of friends. good or bad.. you always treat good friends first, then not good friends.. why people treat you as a good friend? maybe cause you are friendly and nice, helpful.. etc why people treat you not as good? maybe cause they dont like the way you talk.. they just dont like the way you are.
but if majority thinks that way, is good to change! HOWEVER, is others like the way you are. it shows that is their problem of losing you! (: in this world, no one will be left out. if there is, this mean it your attitude. always change for the better! (: just believe this, no matter where you are, there will be someone always loving you..and that excludes your family!still got your friends! losing 2 to 4 friends, yet having 200 over friends still. not a big loss (:
JIAYOU :D
:D
thanks IRENE and PEISH for being such caring people to dedicate their precious posts to me. [: i'm fine now and i promise to stop harassing you all so much. :D
Recent events have become a tornado of disaster, and all I want is to know the real reason why I was kicked out of that group for Zong Ming to stay. And I want to know why these 3 have become such _______, and why my supposedly-former-best-friend have become like that or even worse. I fervently 'thank' the SC board for such drastic changes in my classmates.
I thank PEISHAN[: here for being such a wonderful chair (to sit on, lol) and for counselling me even when I was complaining about her [ahem] sex partner and friends. ;D
LOVELOVELOVE.
I'm so glad we've such nice chairs and vicechairs this year. :D
ESP. THE CHAIR! :DD
Yeah.
Am lost in a huge mixture of feelings now. ]:
bye,
and today was disastrous. I just feel so lost.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
{ 8:47 PM on '#107.' }
i just deleted the iRCFC blog, for your information.
I hate it. I HATE IT.
Why are there such bitches in the class?
maybe i'm one too, but whatever.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
{ 10:31 AM on '#106. ]:' }
cass wants a dog. very badly ]:
after reading 'a friend like henry', cass is obsessed!
cass needs a dog after all that extremely terrible depression. the depression is still going on. yep.
ARGHHHH. D:
i think cavalier king charles spaniels are cute! ;D okay. i'd really rather adopt one from SPCA. seriously.
but look at all the trouble! how come it looks like so much trouble o.o you walk it twice a day? -.-
its just the extra money it'll cost. but all the love you receive instead is all worth it. i'd rather sacrifice braces for this!
sigh.
Friday, January 9, 2009
{ 10:07 PM on '#105. when you feel lost.' }
i feel lost.
Life doesn't get any more meaningful than it does now, where in the bottom of a 300,000 light years deep pit you know there's no where else you can go but up. or upside down. Again.
Regardless of the first day of school 5-minute happiness, where I received my christmas presents and belated birthday presents, the day was spent in agony - but not because of the diarrhoea but of the tornado stirring in me. The tornado of feelings.
So many scenarios have played over in my head, of how I could EVER feel friendless, especially during Year1 orientation last year. Although at that time I knew no one from Lystra, I felt more noticed than I do now. Why? Now when I've friends from every class, now when I know everyone from Lystra, why does that warm and tingly feeling of friendship still evade me? What is the problem? With me, or with you?
If I had known being in a class like 1L and 2L, I'd never have come here. Upon leaving Rosyth, I guaranteed myself a secure heart never to engage in such childish acts of 'friendship' again. From my past experiences, real friends can't be stolen or gained through clinging onto them, and the intensity of the friendship can't be measured by the amount of time spent with the person.
Even if I spent a million years with you, I won't be able to hold a place in your heart in comparison to one who spent only a day with you.
I wanted to find a true friend, truer than those who don't even have the heart to return me the presents I went to pains to give them, even if its just out of basic courtesy. Or better than those who obviously, didn't want to give me a present- rather giving some other random person one than someone supposedly closer to him/her than him/her.
Maybe that's what the saying goes, "Life is unfair". Life really is. Life is cruel, too.
When you have someone as a friend, that wouldn't speak to you in class or acknowledge you, so much so that you've given up trying to talk to that person or, 'cling' on to him/her. I've given up trying to maintain SMS contact. Since its one-way traffic, then you can't even call it traffic.
Life sucks, and the beginning of a 2009 year seems to be a bad omen for whats to come.
On the bright side, I can now study without much distractions.
Group projects, on the other hand? I'll have to find a group which I've not much compellation to work with.
Good luck.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
{ 6:47 PM on '#104.' }
pissed!
]: my senior, insulted my surname.
I'M NOT REPEATING MY ARGUMENT ON WHY WE ALL SHOULD SHUT UP ABOUT INSULTING PEOPLE'S SURNAMES, LOSERS.
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today was sucky cause this morning tried the clarinet and don't know why my embouchure so crappy :x and also, i was completely ignored by the balls of the world so i kinda got pissed. -.- and i thought, why get pissed? its not my fault. okay, anyway i was sitting in front all the time. :D tried to concentrate on teacher and i kind of did get abit of things today. yay {:
tomorrow's band and i'm not looking forward D: sigh. damned senior. so digusted, why my seniors/classmates/whatever all so crappy de. ]: no offence to the other 22 people in lystra. okay, errr... 19 people in the class.
anyway, going to catch xinhuaduoduokai and watch kaiwang meet his death gwahahaha. -.- and finish up science, and also my chinese and saxo. [: <3night! MERRYXMAS, IRENE.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
{ 6:22 PM on '#103. o.o' }
hi. :D
I WANT A TUNER.
yep [: merry xmas!
going to figure out the notes/articulation/intonation for bars 237 and 294 respectively! AND MEMORISE MY SUYU ]:
oops. forgot pictures again
ANYWAY, I WANT A TUNER. :D
sorry uh no time to post. teacher said must learn how to manage time effectively. SO NIGHT :D
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
{ 5:16 PM on '#102. o.o' }
HEH. Oops sorry forgot to post [: and upload pictures!
AHHHHH. let me get used to school first k! ;D yayyyy.
anyway today was last day of orientation and extremely diao. :D
changed into our home clothes, had this lame lecture and did roleplay! was the emcee for the 3rd time roleplay. -.- i was laughing like mad haha {:
had melvin and thiri and our uniform models, and sarah & jianchong as our casual wear models.
went back to th auditorium! was forced into emcee-ing for lystra's models by the coach ]: sighhhhhhh. was so nervous please!
at least there was jac to errrrrrr entertain me! :D anyway only emcee-ed for jianchong. -.- was super stupid and lame and embarassing.
AHHHH I SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID ANYTHING! ]:
anyway the coach is sick in the first place, kinda learnt that from him ;D
huh sorry i'll post somemore k ._. gtg soon. school's starting tmr and i must prep for it!
YAYYYYY JIAYOU. o.o
Friday, January 2, 2009
{ 5:50 PM on '#101. YOMOMMA.' }
Oh hi :D today's first day in school was awesomely horrible -.-
i never fail to have diarrhoea on the first day of school! ]: unfortunate zzz.
anyway ignore the scary/horrible part.
thanks
RONGYING! belated birthday present[: that consists of 4 things omg!
#1 ORANGE NAIL POLISH HAHAHA #2 Earrings [LOLLIPOP :D] #3 2 Pig things that were scarily cute xD #4 BREADOUUUUUUU. <3 hoho.
CHINGYING! xmas present/souvenir? i dunno o.o
CHOCOLATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. DIFFERENT FLAVOURED LA OMG.
SARAH! xmas present/vietnam souvenir.
scary box to protect the delicate items! BRABRABRA.
#1 earrings! butterflyflyflyyyy. #2 magnet people which i magneted on my fridge :D
WILL TAKE PICS SOON HOHOHO. MEMORYYYY.
now will go off ]: stomach ache -.-' NIGHTNIGHT!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
{ 10:18 AM on '#100. NEW YEAR!' }
Yay, I'm like SO SMART to plan to have my #100th post on New Year. HOHO.
Smart me :D
Anyway, yesterday wasn't much- spent the day buying laptop cooler and hm, okay a yellow skirt. :D deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep yellow! very pretty! but from iora, i mean those are for working people who need clothes! hah.
I need to slim down though ]: SERIOUSLY. You don't want to know how ridiculously fat i am, and why, may you ask? WHY AM I FAT?! CAUSE MY MOM REFUSED TO FEED ME BREASTMILK. SO THERE.
]: grahhhhhhh. angryyyy! anyway it was a proven research. A HALF-BREAST HALF- FORMULA MILK DIET WOULD BE GREAT TOO. O.O SIGHHHHH ]:
okay anyway the night was spent sending smses. received like 50+ wellwishes! yay cass again, the ever-so-popular cass! -.- hoho.
merry xmas peopleeeee :D and a happy new year yay.
lol. so today will go iceskating at kallang, OF ALL PLACES KALLANG! ]: whaiiiiii! so near dunmanhigh zzz. then maybe drive around the new campus for fun and yeah. T.T
merry xmas!
&& thanks to rongying for her 4 belated birthday presents, chityee for her xmas present (?), irene for her present (?), chingying for her souvenir and sarah for her xmas present.
i think. o.o
NIGHT :D
Friday, January 30, 2009
{ 10:26 PM on '#115.' }
hi.
i was pushed to post -.-
have been waiting for this guy to reply me as to whether he can let me adopt the maltese.
plus still need to calculate in loads of other factors and stuff, so yes we'll see. ._.
MALTESE! <3
Yeah, recently school's been okay. I'm learning to deal with things more [: I remember Mrs Chu mentioning stuff about being emotionally strong, so i must.
Also, Mr Ng was doing that Quantum Touch thingy. ._. Like you breathe in from your toes (FIGURATIVE) to the top of your head, then breathe out through your fingertips. You should be able to feel something. Like, a flow of energy. SCARY.
Then went Grandma's house today for dinner. I think I'm getting a new phone? O.O
SAMSUNG F480! Lol. I'll miss Sony Ericsson alotttttttttt. I LOVE SONY! <3 HEARTHEARTHEART. My first phone was Samsung though. xD
LOVELOVELOVE SONY! <3
Okay nights, there's band tmr rawr.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
{ 3:36 PM on '#114. ?' }
What am I supposed to say here? Cause I'm restricted ]:
Okay, let me just turn this blog into a supposedly happy place, even if it means I'm supposed to make my life sound interesting when its broken.
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YEAH HI PEOPLE :D -fakesmile- Hahaha xD
These few days in class weren't exactly very healthy, but we made yogurt :D I ate it today. It tasted very... O.O
And went out! Bought Irene's perverse present. -.- And accidentally bought an orange hairband and a thumbthing [that's the brand name.] And my IP Zone Jacket! I saw that jacket a week ago priced at $43, and today I bought it for $19. HAHAHAHAHAHA. PWNNNNNNN <3
Happy things aside, I think beside losing my friends, I've begun to kick some away. Sorry to the one I got upset at this morning, I wasn't feeling very happy. Sorry.
Its trauma, I'm telling you.
Anyway, I am sorry for the flaming- I was abit... consumed by my feelings? Yeah. After reading my posts I felt I did go abit overboard. I admit I'm wrong about that.
But you can't scold me for hanging my dirty laundry in public? After reading David Pelzer I've realised that things are not going to help if you bottle them all up. You'll just get abused, whether it is self-inflicted or by others. Even though he's talking about physical abuse, I'm talking about emotional problems.
I've set down my goal to never have this problem after our dearest Yu Teng, but I guess its blasted again. I'd rather have Yu Teng back, at least at that time I was right and she was wrong. But I've begun to start being the Yu Teng now. The isolated one, the one that is sucking up to others so that she won't be left out, the extremely act-innocent one, I don't want to be. I guess they're what David Pelzer calls survival tactics.
I really don't want to live like this. Why do I even have to live like this?
If my work attitude was so bad, then why ask me to be your partner? Why?
If last year we made a pact that we can make time to be together and study together, with willpower and determination, why not? Mr Ng said talent comes in second, its whether you're willing to or not.
I don't understand, people change. People change, but there is always a reason for the change. I want to know that reason. Why you changed.
I don't want to sound like a naggy grandmother, but I'm the one suffering, not you. I'm the one suffering because of you. Cause its now split into 'we' and 'you', not 'us'.
why.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
{ 10:22 PM on '#113.' }
was forced to post so... hi. [:
CNY sales were extremely bad and will talk about it like, over the weekend. sigh, these days i feel so lonely D:
merry xmas. sorry for not posting!
happy belated birdday minchihhhhhhh <3
Monday, January 19, 2009
{ 10:01 PM on '#112. MORNING.' }
MORNING.
Today got the RS finalised groups. With Sarah and ChingYing in Science Investigative Project. ZZZ.
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Had band today! TUTORIALLLLLLL.
Had PRC Scholar come over and joined saxophones! scary. I FIND HIM PERVERTIC [: kept looking at rachel omg -.-
but today was okay in general! [: mr goh went through overture no. 2, and other than some being out of tune, as always... i'm quite okay with pretty much everything. xD YAYYYYYY.
Then nothing much. Abit emo la, i mean- WHAT DO YOU EXPECT.
I have no life. No proper group of friends.
LYKKE, WAOOOOW CAZZPERE, YOO HUVE NUU FWENZZ?! LOOZERRHXSH. Yeah. You get what I mean.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
{ 1:01 PM on '#111. hoho?' }
MEME!
Post Title: 爱的主旋律 1) put ur itunes on shuffle. 2)for each question, press next for your answer. 3)YOU MUST WRITE DOWN THE NAME OF THE SONG NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. 4)tag 11 friends hu might enjoy this.
1. if someone says :' is this okay?' u say... 咕叽咕叽 - 孙燕姿 LAWL. :D
2. wad would best describe ur personality? If I Kissed You- Corrinne May EW?! D: SO NOT TRUE.
3. wad do u like in a girl/guy? 夜的第七章 - 周杰倫 O.O Night's Seven Piece? Huh. LAWL. N o I do not like someone just because they're active at 7 at night. -.-
4. how do u feel today? 赤地轉機 - 林峰 D: Yeah, I feel emo. And opportunities keep changing? D:
5. what is your life's purpose? C'est La Vie - 梁静茹 LAWL, this is the life! :D Yay.
6. what is your motto? All For One, One For All - HSM2 EXACTLY. I LOVE YOU MEME.
7. what do your friends think of you? Little Superhero Girl- Corrinne May ILY MEME! (: I'm a little superherooooooooo~ xD
8. what do you think of your parents? 一千年以后 - 林俊杰 LAWL. A thousand years later? We'll all be dead.
9. what do you think about very often? 獨白 - 林俊杰 "友情 是今生的承诺", wow. This is very correct. ]: Isn't it the current friendship problems?
10. what is 2+2? 波肩带 - 林俊杰 Huh? O.O Its a 波肩带? LOL.
11. what do you think of your best friend? I have no best friend. D: But anyway, Rock Star - Miley Cyrus O.O LOLLLLLL. Maybe the person will turn into some famous person next time!
12. what do you think of the person you like? Everything In Its Time - Corrinne May ? Everything will take place when its time? The person has good time management? -laughs- I doubt.
[13-15 is missing.]
16. what do your parents think of you? 一次一次一次 - 林峰 LOL. I keep telling them one time only, but I repeat it at least 3 times? Yeah. I'm repetitive xD
17. what will you like to dance to at your wedding? L-O-V-E - 林俊杰 HAHAHAHA YEAH! :D Duh!
18. what will they play at your funeral? 分手快乐 - 梁静茹 -.- Not good to see me die okayyyy! We fenshou not happy! MUST MOURN FOR ME LA D:
19. what is your hobby/interest? 需要你 - 孙燕姿 I like to need someone? O.O
20. what is your biggest secret? A handful of Love - ? Um, I have a handful of love but no one knows?
21. what do you think of your friends? Be My Love - Clazziquai I always think of them as my loves? YES [:
22. what's the worst thing that can happen? 完美的一天 - Sun Yan Zi The worst thing that can happen to me is a perfect day. GO DIE LA MEME. -.-
23. how will you die? 一秒的天堂 - 梁静茹 I will die as I get my one second of heaven. -.-
24. does anybody like you? 舞出彩虹 - 石欣卉 That's a yes right. :D cause I can dance rainbows!
25. if you could go back in time...wad would you change? 崇拜 - 梁静茹 I would change worship! -.-
26. what hurts right now? 本草綱目 - 周杰倫 The grass hurts? :D
27. what would you post this as? The Last Breakthrough - Raymond Lam LAWLLLLLLL xD I SWEAR THIS WON'T BE MY LAST POST OR BREAKTHROUGH. -.-
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
{ 9:11 PM on '#110! LOVEEEEEMEMORIES♥' }
{: memories from 2008!
and one from 2009 xD
will miss the old times in ghimmoh, and also... the old friends.
!LAWL, at IceSkating on 1JAN2009!
I♥RENEEEEEE! xD
♥PUIIIISHAN THE CHAIR! :D
♥CHINGYING & unglam me ]:
♥CHITTY & ♥LINMIN! [: RSYAYYYY.
♥RONGYING! ZOMGLAWL.
♥iRCFC! & the unglam picture -.-
♥HOODIEEEEEES!
♥CFC! ZOMG unglam me again ]:
♥BIMBONANA2! ZOMG -.-"
♥LUCKY KEYS!
Felicia and Cass's foot & keys.
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that's about it :D
JIAYOU LYSTRA FOR CNY STUFF K. D:
we need to buck up!
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
{ 8:41 PM on '#109. <3irene, peishan.' }
I NOW DEDICATE THIS POST TO IRENE AND PEISHAN [:
IRENE
EH I SEE PEISHAN DEDICATE TO YOU, IM NOT HAPPY EH. So here lemme dedicate something to you too :D yeah you really need comfort manzz.
Okay so just telling you whenever you tell me those stuffs, i want to do everything i can but i really cant do much. Cos im not a good counsellor at all, sadlyD: and im not in the same class with you to hang out with you!! I feel so hopeless about helping you!! But i really want to, and i will if i get any chance to. Haha, and i really feel that you're unfortunate to go through any of this stuffs cos you're always friendly & funny (: Friends, you can always get better ones. And i hope peishan will make you happy in class! (I'll make you happier though muahaha) i believe you'll find better friends than them :D cos you're cassssss. balls girl! balls always be with you yo(: it's not the end of the world yet, and it's not worth being down in the doldrums cos of silly people. cheer up & go sodding on! love(:
:D
PEISHAN
what's actually friendship? friends are people who will help you, never leave you alone{at least try} friends are people who never xian2 qi4 you for the way you are. friends are sometimes not friends at all. you put the effort in, yet they dont return your feelings if that ever happens, i think you just need to go away..they are not deserved for you! find someone better! if they just angry for a petty matter, just wait for them to slimmer down (: in your life, you will make a lot alot of friends. good or bad.. you always treat good friends first, then not good friends.. why people treat you as a good friend? maybe cause you are friendly and nice, helpful.. etc why people treat you not as good? maybe cause they dont like the way you talk.. they just dont like the way you are.
but if majority thinks that way, is good to change! HOWEVER, is others like the way you are. it shows that is their problem of losing you! (: in this world, no one will be left out. if there is, this mean it your attitude. always change for the better! (: just believe this, no matter where you are, there will be someone always loving you..and that excludes your family!still got your friends! losing 2 to 4 friends, yet having 200 over friends still. not a big loss (:
JIAYOU :D
:D
thanks IRENE and PEISH for being such caring people to dedicate their precious posts to me. [: i'm fine now and i promise to stop harassing you all so much. :D
Recent events have become a tornado of disaster, and all I want is to know the real reason why I was kicked out of that group for Zong Ming to stay. And I want to know why these 3 have become such _______, and why my supposedly-former-best-friend have become like that or even worse. I fervently 'thank' the SC board for such drastic changes in my classmates.
I thank PEISHAN[: here for being such a wonderful chair (to sit on, lol) and for counselling me even when I was complaining about her [ahem] sex partner and friends. ;D
LOVELOVELOVE.
I'm so glad we've such nice chairs and vicechairs this year. :D
ESP. THE CHAIR! :DD
Yeah.
Am lost in a huge mixture of feelings now. ]:
bye,
and today was disastrous. I just feel so lost.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
{ 8:47 PM on '#107.' }
i just deleted the iRCFC blog, for your information.
I hate it. I HATE IT.
Why are there such bitches in the class?
maybe i'm one too, but whatever.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
{ 10:31 AM on '#106. ]:' }
cass wants a dog. very badly ]:
after reading 'a friend like henry', cass is obsessed!
cass needs a dog after all that extremely terrible depression. the depression is still going on. yep.
ARGHHHH. D:
i think cavalier king charles spaniels are cute! ;D okay. i'd really rather adopt one from SPCA. seriously.
but look at all the trouble! how come it looks like so much trouble o.o you walk it twice a day? -.-
its just the extra money it'll cost. but all the love you receive instead is all worth it. i'd rather sacrifice braces for this!
sigh.
Friday, January 9, 2009
{ 10:07 PM on '#105. when you feel lost.' }
i feel lost.
Life doesn't get any more meaningful than it does now, where in the bottom of a 300,000 light years deep pit you know there's no where else you can go but up. or upside down. Again.
Regardless of the first day of school 5-minute happiness, where I received my christmas presents and belated birthday presents, the day was spent in agony - but not because of the diarrhoea but of the tornado stirring in me. The tornado of feelings.
So many scenarios have played over in my head, of how I could EVER feel friendless, especially during Year1 orientation last year. Although at that time I knew no one from Lystra, I felt more noticed than I do now. Why? Now when I've friends from every class, now when I know everyone from Lystra, why does that warm and tingly feeling of friendship still evade me? What is the problem? With me, or with you?
If I had known being in a class like 1L and 2L, I'd never have come here. Upon leaving Rosyth, I guaranteed myself a secure heart never to engage in such childish acts of 'friendship' again. From my past experiences, real friends can't be stolen or gained through clinging onto them, and the intensity of the friendship can't be measured by the amount of time spent with the person.
Even if I spent a million years with you, I won't be able to hold a place in your heart in comparison to one who spent only a day with you.
I wanted to find a true friend, truer than those who don't even have the heart to return me the presents I went to pains to give them, even if its just out of basic courtesy. Or better than those who obviously, didn't want to give me a present- rather giving some other random person one than someone supposedly closer to him/her than him/her.
Maybe that's what the saying goes, "Life is unfair". Life really is. Life is cruel, too.
When you have someone as a friend, that wouldn't speak to you in class or acknowledge you, so much so that you've given up trying to talk to that person or, 'cling' on to him/her. I've given up trying to maintain SMS contact. Since its one-way traffic, then you can't even call it traffic.
Life sucks, and the beginning of a 2009 year seems to be a bad omen for whats to come.
On the bright side, I can now study without much distractions.
Group projects, on the other hand? I'll have to find a group which I've not much compellation to work with.
Good luck.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
{ 6:47 PM on '#104.' }
pissed!
]: my senior, insulted my surname.
I'M NOT REPEATING MY ARGUMENT ON WHY WE ALL SHOULD SHUT UP ABOUT INSULTING PEOPLE'S SURNAMES, LOSERS.
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today was sucky cause this morning tried the clarinet and don't know why my embouchure so crappy :x and also, i was completely ignored by the balls of the world so i kinda got pissed. -.- and i thought, why get pissed? its not my fault. okay, anyway i was sitting in front all the time. :D tried to concentrate on teacher and i kind of did get abit of things today. yay {:
tomorrow's band and i'm not looking forward D: sigh. damned senior. so digusted, why my seniors/classmates/whatever all so crappy de. ]: no offence to the other 22 people in lystra. okay, errr... 19 people in the class.
anyway, going to catch xinhuaduoduokai and watch kaiwang meet his death gwahahaha. -.- and finish up science, and also my chinese and saxo. [: <3night! MERRYXMAS, IRENE.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
{ 6:22 PM on '#103. o.o' }
hi. :D
I WANT A TUNER.
yep [: merry xmas!
going to figure out the notes/articulation/intonation for bars 237 and 294 respectively! AND MEMORISE MY SUYU ]:
oops. forgot pictures again
ANYWAY, I WANT A TUNER. :D
sorry uh no time to post. teacher said must learn how to manage time effectively. SO NIGHT :D
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
{ 5:16 PM on '#102. o.o' }
HEH. Oops sorry forgot to post [: and upload pictures!
AHHHHH. let me get used to school first k! ;D yayyyy.
anyway today was last day of orientation and extremely diao. :D
changed into our home clothes, had this lame lecture and did roleplay! was the emcee for the 3rd time roleplay. -.- i was laughing like mad haha {:
had melvin and thiri and our uniform models, and sarah & jianchong as our casual wear models.
went back to th auditorium! was forced into emcee-ing for lystra's models by the coach ]: sighhhhhhh. was so nervous please!
at least there was jac to errrrrrr entertain me! :D anyway only emcee-ed for jianchong. -.- was super stupid and lame and embarassing.
AHHHH I SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID ANYTHING! ]:
anyway the coach is sick in the first place, kinda learnt that from him ;D
huh sorry i'll post somemore k ._. gtg soon. school's starting tmr and i must prep for it!
YAYYYYY JIAYOU. o.o
Friday, January 2, 2009
{ 5:50 PM on '#101. YOMOMMA.' }
Oh hi :D today's first day in school was awesomely horrible -.-
i never fail to have diarrhoea on the first day of school! ]: unfortunate zzz.
anyway ignore the scary/horrible part.
thanks
RONGYING! belated birthday present[: that consists of 4 things omg!
#1 ORANGE NAIL POLISH HAHAHA #2 Earrings [LOLLIPOP :D] #3 2 Pig things that were scarily cute xD #4 BREADOUUUUUUU. <3 hoho.
CHINGYING! xmas present/souvenir? i dunno o.o
CHOCOLATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. DIFFERENT FLAVOURED LA OMG.
SARAH! xmas present/vietnam souvenir.
scary box to protect the delicate items! BRABRABRA.
#1 earrings! butterflyflyflyyyy. #2 magnet people which i magneted on my fridge :D
WILL TAKE PICS SOON HOHOHO. MEMORYYYY.
now will go off ]: stomach ache -.-' NIGHTNIGHT!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
{ 10:18 AM on '#100. NEW YEAR!' }
Yay, I'm like SO SMART to plan to have my #100th post on New Year. HOHO.
Smart me :D
Anyway, yesterday wasn't much- spent the day buying laptop cooler and hm, okay a yellow skirt. :D deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep yellow! very pretty! but from iora, i mean those are for working people who need clothes! hah.
I need to slim down though ]: SERIOUSLY. You don't want to know how ridiculously fat i am, and why, may you ask? WHY AM I FAT?! CAUSE MY MOM REFUSED TO FEED ME BREASTMILK. SO THERE.
]: grahhhhhhh. angryyyy! anyway it was a proven research. A HALF-BREAST HALF- FORMULA MILK DIET WOULD BE GREAT TOO. O.O SIGHHHHH ]:
okay anyway the night was spent sending smses. received like 50+ wellwishes! yay cass again, the ever-so-popular cass! -.- hoho.
merry xmas peopleeeee :D and a happy new year yay.
lol. so today will go iceskating at kallang, OF ALL PLACES KALLANG! ]: whaiiiiii! so near dunmanhigh zzz. then maybe drive around the new campus for fun and yeah. T.T
merry xmas!
&& thanks to rongying for her 4 belated birthday presents, chityee for her xmas present (?), irene for her present (?), chingying for her souvenir and sarah for her xmas present.
!LAWL, at IceSkating on 1JAN2009!
I♥RENEEEEEE! xD
♥PUIIIISHAN THE CHAIR! :D
♥CHINGYING & unglam me ]:
♥CHITTY & ♥LINMIN! [: RSYAYYYY.
♥RONGYING! ZOMGLAWL.
♥iRCFC! & the unglam picture -.-
♥HOODIEEEEEES! 
♥CFC! ZOMG unglam me again ]:
♥LUCKY KEYS!