What am I supposed to say here? Cause I'm restricted ]:
Okay, let me just turn this blog into a supposedly happy place, even if it means I'm supposed to make my life sound interesting when its broken.
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YEAH HI PEOPLE :D -fakesmile- Hahaha xD
These few days in class weren't exactly very healthy, but we made yogurt :D I ate it today. It tasted very... O.O
And went out! Bought Irene's perverse present. -.- And accidentally bought an orange hairband and a thumbthing [that's the brand name.] And my IP Zone Jacket! I saw that jacket a week ago priced at $43, and today I bought it for $19. HAHAHAHAHAHA. PWNNNNNNN <3
Happy things aside, I think beside losing my friends, I've begun to kick some away. Sorry to the one I got upset at this morning, I wasn't feeling very happy. Sorry.
Its trauma, I'm telling you.
Anyway, I am sorry for the flaming- I was abit... consumed by my feelings? Yeah. After reading my posts I felt I did go abit overboard. I admit I'm wrong about that.
But you can't scold me for hanging my dirty laundry in public? After reading David Pelzer I've realised that things are not going to help if you bottle them all up. You'll just get abused, whether it is self-inflicted or by others. Even though he's talking about physical abuse, I'm talking about emotional problems.
I've set down my goal to never have this problem after our dearest Yu Teng, but I guess its blasted again. I'd rather have Yu Teng back, at least at that time I was right and she was wrong. But I've begun to start being the Yu Teng now. The isolated one, the one that is sucking up to others so that she won't be left out, the extremely act-innocent one, I don't want to be. I guess they're what David Pelzer calls survival tactics.
I really don't want to live like this. Why do I even have to live like this?
If my work attitude was so bad, then why ask me to be your partner? Why?
If last year we made a pact that we can make time to be together and study together, with willpower and determination, why not? Mr Ng said talent comes in second, its whether you're willing to or not.
I don't understand, people change. People change, but there is always a reason for the change. I want to know that reason. Why you changed.
I don't want to sound like a naggy grandmother, but I'm the one suffering, not you. I'm the one suffering because of you. Cause its now split into 'we' and 'you', not 'us'.
why.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
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What am I supposed to say here? Cause I'm restricted ]:
Okay, let me just turn this blog into a supposedly happy place, even if it means I'm supposed to make my life sound interesting when its broken.
---
YEAH HI PEOPLE :D -fakesmile- Hahaha xD
These few days in class weren't exactly very healthy, but we made yogurt :D I ate it today. It tasted very... O.O
And went out! Bought Irene's perverse present. -.- And accidentally bought an orange hairband and a thumbthing [that's the brand name.] And my IP Zone Jacket! I saw that jacket a week ago priced at $43, and today I bought it for $19. HAHAHAHAHAHA. PWNNNNNNN <3
Happy things aside, I think beside losing my friends, I've begun to kick some away. Sorry to the one I got upset at this morning, I wasn't feeling very happy. Sorry.
Its trauma, I'm telling you.
Anyway, I am sorry for the flaming- I was abit... consumed by my feelings? Yeah. After reading my posts I felt I did go abit overboard. I admit I'm wrong about that.
But you can't scold me for hanging my dirty laundry in public? After reading David Pelzer I've realised that things are not going to help if you bottle them all up. You'll just get abused, whether it is self-inflicted or by others. Even though he's talking about physical abuse, I'm talking about emotional problems.
I've set down my goal to never have this problem after our dearest Yu Teng, but I guess its blasted again. I'd rather have Yu Teng back, at least at that time I was right and she was wrong. But I've begun to start being the Yu Teng now. The isolated one, the one that is sucking up to others so that she won't be left out, the extremely act-innocent one, I don't want to be. I guess they're what David Pelzer calls survival tactics.
I really don't want to live like this. Why do I even have to live like this?
If my work attitude was so bad, then why ask me to be your partner? Why?
If last year we made a pact that we can make time to be together and study together, with willpower and determination, why not? Mr Ng said talent comes in second, its whether you're willing to or not.
I don't understand, people change. People change, but there is always a reason for the change. I want to know that reason. Why you changed.
I don't want to sound like a naggy grandmother, but I'm the one suffering, not you. I'm the one suffering because of you. Cause its now split into 'we' and 'you', not 'us'.
